It was a horrible, no good, very bad day.
Thought I was going to lunch with a friend, turns out it was a business meeting. And what transpired left me feeling so hollow and unvalued inside. It really ignited fears I’m already wrestling with – is there even a place for me or have I been benched, doomed to sit on the sidelines. I mean, what can a severely hearing impaired woman do?!
Then I headed over to Colorado College for their Fine Arts Center free day ~ This has been a favorite of mine all summer! ~ only to discover they change the hours during the school year and it had just closed! Arrrrrgggghhhhh!
As I headed back to my car the art on the lawn caught my attention and I sensed the Lord prompting me, “Pull out that sketchbook Deb and draw the butterfly.” Thankfully I had a picnic blanket in the back of my car. So I plopped down on the grass, started drawing…. and processing…
Ever since we moved here Jeremiah 29:11 has been a key promise I’m clinging to: “For I know the plans I have for you” declares the Lord, “plans to comfort you and not to harm you. Plans to give you a hope and a future.”
And once again I sensed the Lord asking, “Will you trust me, Deb?”
As I drew He reminded me, “Caterpillars don’t look like much, but they are a necessary stage in a butterfly’s development. And a caterpillar’s job is to eat leaves. All that eating is fueling the transformation necessary for him to become a butterfly. Be patient. Now is your time to eat! All the learning you are doing during your sabbatical ~ there really is a purpose in it. In time you will see. But until then, trust in me, rest in me… hopefully and thankfully!”
Left that art center will a totally changed heart and attitude. Amazing how it even blesses me when it’s closed ~ guess that’s because the divine docent is always available! :0)